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December 12, 2004
Going to That Happy Place In My Mind...
Sunday morning. Finals on Monday and Tuesday. Am in the eye of the storm. No anxiety. Feeling magnanimous and patient. How very strange. Two weeks ago I tried killing myself. Had the mortar and pestle out and was reaching for the pills. The husband took them away. Danced right along the edge but didn't go over and now I'm finer than fine-ity dine dine.
Heard a poem recited on the radio today. Made me think of my “happy” place.
The Lake Isle of Innisfree
I will arise and go now, and go to Innisfree,
And a small cabin build there, of clay and wattles made:
Nine bean-rows will I have there, a hive for the honeybee,
And live alone in the bee-loud glade.
And I shall have some peace there, for peace comes dropping slow,
Dropping from the veils of the morning to where the cricket sings;
There midnight's all a glimmer, and noon a purple glow,
And evening full of the linnet's wings.
I will arise and go now, for always night and day
I hear lake water lapping with low sounds by the shore;
While I stand on the roadway, or on the pavements grey,
I hear it in the deep heart's core.
~WB Yeats
Posted by swift at December 12, 2004 3:22 AM